In life, I have loved and I have lost in a thousand ways. Even in my closest relationships, the fire and the ice coexist. I have two parents, both deceased, and I loved them both. I have three siblings with whom I maintain positive if distant relationships. I have four children, all grown. I have four granchildren. I have had three substantial romantic relationships: a 15-year marriage ending in divorce, another 15+ year relationship ending in with a COVID death, and a current relationship which most would consider forbidden. If twin-flames actually exist, I am living it. All other relationships are time and situation-driven and fluid, which bothers people. My true love and true passion runs to the world, and to children in particular.

I walk the .999 line. My mind consumes me, but I am ruled by the heart so I have never truly manifested my mental capacity. The mind has eaten me alive for most of my life but I am learning to make peace with it. I decline to accept any label that would identify me as ill, and I decline to medicate to numb it. I have rebelled and resisted and fought and tried to fit into this world but have never succeeded. I hated school and could have easily dropped out and sometimes I wish I did. But then I got mad when a government system hurt my child (and me, and my family), and I became suddenly consumed with getting a law degree. I graduated law school in 2011 and had a nice career in child protection defense, but I have lost my zeal for it and have unfortunately lost my confidence in the legal system itself. So we move on.

I am a very spiritual person and have always been that. I have seen ghosts, I have communicated with the dead, and I have received direct guidance from God. I have met angels and I have met the devil. I have been an angel in the eyes of many and I have been the devil to some. I attended a protestant church in my early childhood and was raised Catholic later, until I became upset with the priest because he didn’t want to hear about Grace, a spiritual healer, whom I had personally observed in the execution of miracles. That was the end of organized religion for me. I have a personal relationship with God and I understand what God actually is. As if that weren’t enough, the death of my partner sparked a Dark Night of the Soul and I underwent a spiritual awakening including the activation of Kundalini, which I had never even heard of until I was in the midst of it. Now, I consider myself to be an awakened Christian with true capacity to do good in the world by bringing people together and sharing my true love of life. We are all the same. Everything else is a fiction.